The scene with him shouting his love to the sky made me retardedly uncomfortable; yes, me too. And then it bothered me even more when I connected it to Leoben. Lee has some image of Kara in his mind that he's fixed onto, and I don't think it has a lot to do with reality. Or, no, to be fair, he sees her, but it's an incomplete image. But he doesn't grasp her levels of fucked-up-ness, especially after her time in Leoben-land. And I think she knows this (on some level, if not consciously), and she fears what she could do. Or really, what they can do to each other. And yes, Lee often shows no awareness of her personal life, anything aside from her Starbuck the Pilot rebel personal, at all. If it doesn't fit into his little Starbuck box he mocks it and tries to make her feel ashamed of it.
I certainly agree that her insistence on not divorcing is partly a tactic to keep Lee away from her. I tend to believe she married Sam because she knew she'd made a mistake with Lee. Not that she was frightened of her overwhelming love, but that she knew going further with him would be wrong when she didn't really love him in that way. And in fact, I wonder if part of her insistence on the fight in UB and the reason she was angry at Lee was because she felt he pushed her.
hrm. been sitting here trying to put into words why me and Lee are not buddies. I'm not a bad boy follower, I usually like the Hero (thus I fangrrl Sam and Helo). So you'd think I should like Lee. But ... no. because... well, since I've now written and erased several random thoughts on this, I think this is probably something I should think about when more awake. :)
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Date: 2006-12-20 07:22 am (UTC)I certainly agree that her insistence on not divorcing is partly a tactic to keep Lee away from her. I tend to believe she married Sam because she knew she'd made a mistake with Lee. Not that she was frightened of her overwhelming love, but that she knew going further with him would be wrong when she didn't really love him in that way. And in fact, I wonder if part of her insistence on the fight in UB and the reason she was angry at Lee was because she felt he pushed her.
hrm. been sitting here trying to put into words why me and Lee are not buddies. I'm not a bad boy follower, I usually like the Hero (thus I fangrrl Sam and Helo). So you'd think I should like Lee. But ... no. because... well, since I've now written and erased several random thoughts on this, I think this is probably something I should think about when more awake. :)